While Jesus was God, He was also fully man. Did Mary fully grasp the significance of who Jesus would be to all eternity? Did she worry about whether or not she had adequately prepared Him for a life of ministry? Jesus began His ministry at a young age. In fact, she encouraged His first miracle. After that, there was no turning back. Did she ever worry about whether or not she had done enough?
Every year as I read the Biblical account leading up to Christ’s birth, I try to put myself in Mary’s position. Surely she must have felt honored that God chose her to carry His Son and be the mother of Jesus. But as a mother who is preparing to send her sons out into the world, and wondering what I forgot or perhaps could have or should have done a better job at preparing them for, I wonder if perhaps Mary ever doubted herself and her capabilities as a mother.
First, being told she would give birth to a Son when she was still a virgin. And then knowing that she could be rejected by Joseph and the community if he refused to marry his pregnant bride. What fear and doubt that could have brought. Then on the night of Jesus’ birth, there was no room in the inn. Did it ever concern her that the King of kings was going to be born in such lowly conditions? Did she ever doubt her ability to provide adequately for Him?
And ultimately, she had to release Jesus into the world to perform His ministry, hoping, believing she had done all God expected of her as His mother to prepare Him. Yet as I read the account, Mary was given an assurance: “Gabriel appeared to her and said, ‘Greetings, favored woman! The Lord is with you!’…’Don’t be afraid, Mary,’ the angel told her, ‘for you have found favor with God!’” …“The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you.” (Luke 1:28, 30 & 35).
Mary was given a very important role to play, but after Mary’s obedient submission to the will of God, the ultimate responsibility rested with God.
As I parent my own sons, I take my responsibility as a parent quite seriously, as I know Mary did as well. But I also take solace in the fact that “Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from Him” (Psalm 127:3) and that just as Jesus, being God’s son, was loved even more by God than Mary could ever humanly love Him, my sons are also loved more by God than I can love them, and He is looking out for them.
Just as the angel encouraged Mary that she did not need to be afraid because the Lord was with her, neither do I need to fear because God is with me, to guide and direct me.
Just as the angel assured Mary that the Holy Spirit would be with her, and the power of the Most High would overshadow her, I too have the Holy Spirit within me every step of this mothering journey.
Just as Mary ultimately had to release Jesus back to God to fulfill His calling on earth, I too, prepare my heart and mind to release my sons to God to be used by Him for His service, in whatever way He sees fit according to how He has gifted them. (DR MICHELLE BENGTSON